Friday, September 17, 2004

Looking back...

I think I'm starting to understand why I've fallen off balance mentally...

For weeks, I lived in a dream world. Just imagining myself with the perfect man, at the perfect weight. I literally day dreamed all day long. Didn't really participate in the real world much. So, when I crossed that line and met this guy who seemed like the man of my dreams, I was yanked out of my fantasy world, into the real world. The real world, where I was not thin and beautiful--but fat! I need to get back to the point where I'm envisioning myself thin so because it pushes me to take the program seriously.

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