Saturday, December 04, 2004

I've been off the bandwagon for over two months now

I just want to clarify to anyone who may be interested in trying Medifast--Medifast really works. The problem I struggle with, however, and have always struggled with, is compulsive overeating. I've struggled with overeating all my life. When I was younger, it didn't matter much because my metabolism and activity level was high. All hell broke loose once I tried to "check" my overeating tendencies.

Well...where do I go from here? My closing date for my new house is actually moved up to 12/20. I want to move into my new home slimmer and in control of what I'm trying to do. Once its just me, I'll have nobody to blame but myself for what I put into my mouth. I will go into seclusion and keep all sugars away.

Taken from Food for Thought, Daily Meditations For Overeaters:

For the compulsive overeater, there is always one primary choice to be made. Will I abstain or will I overeat? For us, there is nothing in between. If we have hundreds of pounds to lose or if we have reached and are maintaining our goal weight, the choice is still the same. It is the key decision we make many, many times each day

We are free at each moment to choose which we will do. There is no magic which will make us abstain, and there is no force which can compel us to swallow food we do not need. The choice is ours alone.

No one graduates from OA. There is no point at which one can say, "This is it. I've got it made now." We are always aware of the fact that we are compulsive overeaters and are always one bite away from a binge. When we remember that abstaining or overeating is our primary choice, then other decisions become easier. To abstain is to choose life. To overeat is to choose death.

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May I maintain constant awareness of my primary choice.