I don't know how much I weigh

I left my scale behind and haven't weighed myself in months. It's probably better that way. I know that if I do what's right I will be where I need to be soon. That's all the matters. This journey requires diligence. Summer is approaching, and for the first time in 7 years, I would like to be a fox-- during the summer that is. My weight loss pattern has been a big loss in the fall, then a gain in the winter that continues throughout the summer until fall.

I spent a good portion of yesterday arguing with a "know it all" who kept going on and on about how "diets don't work." I told him that diets do work, the question is whether the person will stay on the diet until the end, and maintain the weight loss when the goal is reached. What I did was quit the diet and go back to binging. NO matter what type of lifestyle I'm leading, if I overeat, then I will gain weight. He raised some good points, and I do agree with some of what he said about making foods less taboo, but for now, I have a goal that I want to reach. I told him that if I fail again, I will gladly do his plan (because at that point I'd be at rock bottom). To make matters worse, the jerk gave me a cold! I am really, really sick now. I don't know if its a cold or the flu. Rarely do I get colds, and this cold medicine does not seem to be working at all.

I'm so through with men. Until I learn to stand up for myself and not place another person's needs above my own, then I need to stay single.